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My friend died on the 21. He got shot in the head....and he didn't instantly either. which sucks. they are tryna say it was an accident, and the some say because of how he got shot, he couldn't of done it himself. i'm sad.. i didn't know how well enough to say it'll effect my daily life, but it'll effect me. i'll miss him. i've been in school with him since 3rd grade. we were bf and gf for like 3 days lol. we were young. its cute now that i think about it. James has always been there..and now he's not and its hard to understand. he would of been sitting with me on Graduation day...and now he won't. this has been the saddest and the worst week

This asshole Austin, told all my secrets. Everything i entrusted into this asshole, he told everyone of his little friends, which included my cousin. i hate him with ever fibber of my being. i don't wish bad on many people, but i hate him so much. i hate him. i hope he never grows enough balls to talk to me. i want to disappear. i'm so embarassed. well..actually, i wish he'd disappear

On monday, my first cousin Maria La'Cole Garner died. She was only 22. She had breast cancer which led to a lot of other problems. like cancer in her bones and traumas that spread everywhere! and then, my boyfriend thought it would be a great idea to leave me on Thursday. Said he didn't want to give me any more reason to cry, then he broke up with me. Smart a$$. He needed time to work out his life and he could only do that AAALLLOOONNNEEE!! Fucking Genius. i swear he's gay. i'm like whatever you need..but in the back of my mind i'm like your 17 you have your whole fuckin life to figure this out, why now? why the same week my cousin dies. you